"I only get one life and I will not let Fibromyalgia take the joy from my living it."

Friday, July 30, 2010

Couple Little Updates

I finally got through to the doctor about taking that medicine for sleep. She prescribed Amitriptyline to help me sleep at night. She said that regular sleeping pills do not work for Fibromyalgia. Of course, I cannot remember why. But it is because this works differently in the brain because it is not a sleeping pill. However, when I got to the pharmacy a drug interaction was flagged with the Cymbalta. So the pharmacist told me to ask the doctor if she still wanted me to take it and gave me advice on how to take the two together safely. So for the last two weeks I've been trying to remember to call the doctor. I would even set alarms on my phone to remind me but I wouldn't hear them or for whatever reason miss them. One time I accidentally set them alarm for 2:30am. I didn't think that was really an appropriate time to call. A few times she wasn't there. So anyway, we finally got connected and she said that it was okay to take the medicine. So tonight I will start taking the Amitriptyline. I used to take it for vertigo, but that was a much larger dose, 50mg. I quit taking it because I could not wake up in the morning. This is only 10mg. So hopefully I'll be okay. I expect great things from this little pill. I've been so exhausted. If this works my life could literally change.

The other update is that the receptionist called to remind me of my consult with the surgeon on Monday for my lumpectomy. In the long list of things that she told me I was instructed not to wear any deodorant, body powder, perfume or anything of the like on my breast, abdomen, neck or underarms. HOW GROSS! I live in Sunny San Antonio. It'll be August! My appointment is at 12:30 and I will have not been wearing any deodorant. I put deodorant on immediately after I get out of the shower. I mean immediately after I towel off, it's the first thing before I even comb my hair out. I hate the feeling of the skin sticking to skin. I read in an article that deodorant works best if applied at night. Something about getting into the skin, blah, blah. I can never remember anything anymore. But I do remember that. So I'm thinking I apply it at night and then shower in the morning and maybe I'll not stink and sweat too bad. But I'll still have the whole skin sticking problem. And, no, don't even think about leaving a comment recommending that I just grow my hair out so that I can't feel it : )

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Goodie Goodie Garlic

If you're not following the blog Fibromyalgia & CFS Blog By Adrienne Dellwo, add it to your roll. Today she talked about the powers of garlic which I happen to love.This is just a quote from the article. To read the whole thing, click here.

"Reducing Inflammation
Research shows that garlic inhibits enzymes that can lead to inflammation, and thereby help with illnesses like asthma and arthritis.
Chronic fatigue syndrome is associated with high levels of pro-inflammatory cytokines (part of the immune system). For years, experts have doubted that fibromyalgia involved inflammation, but some new evidence has suggested that it does, and many of our common comorbid conditions are inflammatory.
Anti-inflammatory drugs can be really hard on your liver and digestive system, so it's important to have alternative ways to fight inflammation."
I love to cook with garlic. In fact you'll see it in a lot of my recipes here. For me the easiest way to use garlic is with the Pampered Chef garlic press. It's $16 but worth every penny. 

How to use garlic my way:
Smack the garlic on the counter to loosen the cloves apart. You may have to peel back some of the paper. Loosen it and pull out a couple cloves. Leave the rest of the paper on the head. Take your Pampered Chef garlic press. Put one clove into the press. Do Not Peel It! The press does that for you. Squeeze the handle over your bowl. Take a small knife and scrape the garlic off the press into the bowl. Then open the press and use the tip of the knife and pull out the skin of the clove.If the cloves are tiny you can do more than one at a time. I use a lot more garlic than what any of my recipes actually say I use.

Tips-Don't buy the huge garlic. The bigger they are the harder they are to squeeze through the press. For normal people it may be okay. But for me with fibro and my hands hurting, I buy the smaller ones.
Garlic is easy to grow and makes pretty flowers
To store the garlic, leave the papery skin on it. Put back in the box if it came in one, or you can store it in a garlic container. You can just stick it in the cabinet with your spices. It just needs air circulation. Only refrigerate garlic if it has already been peeled, chopped or pressed.I find that the easiest way to clean the Pampered Chef garlic press is to fill the sink with warm soapy water. Rinse out the press the best you can. Then put it under the water and shake back and forth. That gets the water going through those little holes and gets anything out. I've never put my through the dishwasher. That and using the knife while cooking seem a lot easier than the little tool that comes with it for cleaning. 
Cook on!

Pet Therapy

I ran across this article and it reminded me of yesterday's  post. I'm not sure how I ended up running across this, but thought I would share because it more accurately described how I felt about what my dog's bring to my daily life's routine. 
"Dogs have been effective in relieving common fibromyalgia symptoms, such as decreased energy levels and chronic pain. Dogs provide fibromyalgia patients with a sense of grounding when they are caught in fibrofog. Through their unconditional love, dogs encourage FMS patients to be more active, obtain better range of motion and better balance. Overall, fibromyalgia patients have found these dogs to give them a sense of security and independence they had never known before. These pets have given their owners the courage to tackle daily tasks and work with renewed vigor."
To read the full article, click here.This article is referring to licensed assistance dogs. However, mine are not licensed. If anything they're outlawed. But they certainly meet the criteria quoted above.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

These Are My Children

You may have read in my little bio to the side that I have two dogs. I thought I would introduce you to them. My babies, Brodie and Bradley. They have their own blog called Tattle Tails! It's where I share all the little ways they make me laugh and bring joy to my life. I believe that dogs are the best example we have of God's love on this earth. However, they are a great challenge and a lot of work, especially with Fibromyalgia. Sometimes it seems the work is too much.But there are days that I would not be able to get out of bed if it were not for them. And it's not that I get out of bed because they need to be let out or need to be fed. I get out of bed because they want to be loved and something inside of them draws on something inside of me until I'm up and moving around. Their energy keeps me going and their love keeps me from getting depressed. I love dogs. I love these dogs. You'll see that when you read the blog. I hope that they will bring some laughter to your days. That's why I write Tattle Tails.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Shrimp Scampi (for the Candida Diet)


Ingredients:
1 bag frozen shrimp tails on, thawed
Sea Salt and freshly ground black pepper
Extra Virgin Olive Oil, 2 tablespoons
1/2 of a medium red onion, finely chopped
1/2 medium shallot finely chopped.
1/2 cup grape tomatoes, quartered
2 tablespoons chopped garlic
1 lemon, zested and juiced, separately
1/2 cup clam juice or seafood stock
2 to 3 tablespoons cold unsalted butter, cut in small pieces
2 tablespoons fresh chopped parsley leaves
2 tablespoons chopped or snipped fresh chives
1 box rice noodles, optional

Directions:
This is a quick cooking dish so have all of your ingredients prepped and ready to go in the pan because you won't have time to wash and chop while it's cooking. If making pasta, start sauce when you drop your pasta in to boil. Cook to al dente

Heat a large skillet over medium high heat. Add extra-virgin olive oil and melt the butter into it.  Add shallots and red onions and cook a minute or 2, stirring constantly, until onions begin to soften.  Add garlic and cook another 30 seconds. Add lemon zest and shrimp and heat shrimp through, another minute or two.  Add clam juice (or broth). Cook about 5 minutes to reduce by 2/3. Add tomatoes and parsley, toss another minute to heat the tomatoes through.  Season liberally with salt and pepper and cover with chives to garnish.



**all recipes should be adjusted to meet your specific dietary needs, please consult your physician.
developed for the Candida Diet

Monday, July 26, 2010

Sleeping Beauty, That's Me

Well, there are a few differences between me and Sleeping Beauty. She doesn't have these bags under her eyes. She is, well, sleeping beautifully. I am, sleeping fitfully. And the longer I sleep, the less beautiful I become. And when her prince comes, his gentle kiss wakes her refreshed to live happily ever after. Seems that no matter what my Prince does he cannot seem to wake me in the mornings just to say goodbye.
I wish I was Sleeping Beauty. I'm exhausted. In fact that's one of the things I've been talking to the doctor about. She has prescribed me a new medicine to help me sleep, but I keep forgetting to call her office and discuss with her the interactions as described to me by the pharmacist. I blame that on fibro fog. Why? Because I'm exhausted. But it's on my To-Do List for this week along with all the other things I keep forgetting.
I want to focus more on trying to get good restorative sleep. To do this I have set a goal of being in bed at 10 PM each night and setting my alarm for no earlier than 7 AM if possible. That sounds like a good night's sleep to most people. But for me it's just 9 hours of torture. In my sleep I dream. They are the longest most detailed dreams ever. They're full-length screen plays. Sometimes they're fun, but most times they're just normal life. It's always just me. I'm not Angelina Jolie. So instead of resting while I sleep I live a two lives, with no sleep, and wake up completely exhausted.

The National Fibromyalgia Association has what they call Sleep Hygiene. Here are the Top 10 Tips:
  1. Go to bed and get up at the same time every day. That is my plan, but like I said I want to sleep until 7 if I can. I'll set my alarm for earlier if I have to. Chances are the dogs will get me up before then.
  2. Develop sleep rituals. Does taking a handful of medicine count? Add brushing my teeth and pottying and that's my bedtime routine.
  3. Exercise daily - not too close to bedtime. That one is harder. It's a whole other goal in itself. But to prevent flare ups I would like to exercise lightly every other day.
  4. Avoid taking naps. Ok, I broke that one today. But really? When I'm literally about to fall flat on my face from exhaustion and for some weird reason a short nap in the afternoon is the only good sleep I get, why can't I have it? If I'm sleep deprived shouldn't I take the chance whenever I can get it? My goal right now is to just get sleep.
  5. Eliminate caffeine and sugar. I have mostly eliminated caffeine. I don't drink it, I should say. I would like to eliminate sugar. Baby steps.
  6. Stay away from alcohol. If only they were all this easy.
  7. If you can't sleep, get out of bed. I don't generally have periods of time where I lay awake in bed. I go to sleep. I just don't actually sleep.
  8. Don't watch television or read in bed. We don't have a television in the bedroom. I do read in the bed some. I always figured that was my bedtime rituals, relaxing me. But I know it can keep me up because I get wrapped up in the book.
  9. Make it dark - exposure to light can keep you awake. I'm a big girl. I don't use a night light.
  10. Make sure your bed is comfortable. My bed is as comfortable as I can make it. I've got the correct pillow as recommended by my chiropractor. I'm using a body pillow between my knees and arms, although sometimes I think it makes it harder to roll over. A king size bed might be nice because it would give more room between me and my husband so that his movements don't disturb me, but I'm not sure it would fit in our bedroom. Other than that I think the next step in a more comfortable bed would be a memory foam or sleep number.
What are your tips for a better night's sleep?

If you would like to purchase a poster of Sweet Dreams "Top 10 Sleep Hygiene Tips" from the National Fibromyalgia Association click here.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

How to Take a Good Picture

I know several of us with Fibromyalgia have the same problem. The medication that we take causes swelling in our face and neck. It's horrible. I was round-faced before, but now it's down right ridiculous. I hate seeing pictures of myself. In fact, at the time that I am writing this, the pictures on my blog were taken almost two years ago before the swelling started. Now I hate seeing myself in pictures. However I am an avid scrapbooker. Not just for hobby sake, but as an amateur historian of my life. A photojournalist if you will. I author three blogs for the same reason. And I truly believe that it is important, imperative, that we leave behind photos of ourselves. As we are. Sad and as humbling as it may be. This is us. Yes, we can try to flatter the camera the best we can. But someone out there loves you. A spouse, a child, a grandchild, a sibling, a friend. And when they look at your picture they smile. . . because they see you. So here are some tips on how to disguise that swelling in your face and neck when you have your photo taken. I hope it helps you feel more confident. And next time you get your pictures back maybe you'll say "oooh" instead of "argh".

  • I'm just going to say it. Get a really good haircut. I know it's hard on the budget. But find the money somewhere. Do the best you can afford. Tell the stylist exactly what flaws you are trying to hide. Tell her, in my case, I will not get up in the morning and actually dry and fix my hair so it needs to do it on it's own. Voila. Beautiful bob stacked high in the back, drastic angle to longer in the front, side bangs, framing my face, coming just below my chin. Takes 30 pounds and 10 years off. Cuts in just under my chin to hide the fatty neck. 
  • Make sure that the person taking the photo is above you looking down. If they are are looking up at you it will create shadows exagerating the turkey neck. And while you look up at them you are stretching your neck just a little getting rid of the double chin.
  • Don't point your head squarely at the camera. It's a view that actually causes things to look larger than they are. Rather, turn your head just slightly away from the camera. This is why it always feels funny when photographers adjust your head in a shoot, but then when the prints come back it looks fine. If it feels awkward it probably looks good.
  • Just like turning your head a smidgen away from the camera, tilt it also, just a a little.Not enough to make the one side of your neck even fatter, just so that your head is not straight up and down. And if you've got that perfect haircut, it may fall just in place to cover part of your neck.
  • Wear a shirt that is the same color as your eyes. You know the shirt that everyone says, "Oh that makes your eyes look so pretty." Wear that in your next photo. It will make your eyes pop and your neck less noticeable. 
  • Profile picture are supposed to be better. Looking over your shoulder for example. But I find this is not true for me. The neck that is swollen from medicine isn't the same as a neck that's just fat. So it looks different when I look over my shoulder. However. . . 
  • Get creative with hand placement. You can do a partial profile and glance over the shoulder. Say your sitting in a chair that is 45 degrees to the camera. Then you turn your head only 45 degrees to your shoulder while strategically putting your fingers up to your face say to brush your hair behind your ear. And of course, the camera is looking down on you.
  • Another pose I like is to lean forward over a stair rail or banister. Up at the photographer, of course. It really stretches out the neck without making you look like a turtle. So whenever your on vacation and you see something you can lean on this is your chance to say, "Hey, take my picture."
  • I got this tip off a site called The Fat Girl's Guide To Living  "“extend your neck out, then tilt your chin down” I think that one might take some practice.
  • Find an amateur photographer that is starting a business. Someone who is good, but will take the time to work with you, listen to your concerns, be honest with you, help you pose and feel good about yourself in photos.
  • Long or dangling earrings, large necklaces or turtlenecks will draw attention to your neck and chin area, so that's a no no.
  • Practice in the mirror. It's not like anyone else is around for you to get embarrassed.
  • Remember, everyone looks better smiling than frowning. So don't frown when someone starts to take a candid. Train yourself to strike a pose. Even a funny face is better than a hand up in front of a frown.
  • And if you're like me, you're smiling face is a better view than you're backside. So don't walk away everytime someone pulls out the camera. Work it baby. In fact, the more pictures you take, the more likely you are to get one you like. 
  • And finally, you could just forget everything I've said above and learn how to use Photoshop.
 If you'd like to really give this a try with your own camera read How to Hide a Double Chin When Posing. But hey, that's the beauty of digital, you don't have to print these to look at them and try again. I only included one of her tips because she goes into much more technical depth.

The Importance of You in Photographs

So what's your advice on how to take a picture without having a puffy face and neck?

    Tuesday, July 20, 2010

    Consultant With Surgeon Scheduled

    The surgeon's office called and set my consultation for August 2nd, so it's just around the corner. They said that she may biopsy it in the office and choose not to do a lumpectomy. Of course this is just the receptionist talking from what she's seen so she doesn't know my specific case. I am supposed to get the films of my mammogram and ultrasound from the hospital to take with me. The doctor already has the reports. I'm actually more scared of a needle biopsy than a lumpectomy. At least I'd be asleep during a lumpectomy. Unfortunately I've seen a biopsy because I've been with a friend while she got one. Either way, I am at peace about what will happen. The peace came over me during my mammogram at the same time that friends were praying. It's a great gift. However, it is difficult to be here away from all my friends and family. I struggle with knowing when to have Rob go with me to what appointments. Is this appointment "big" enough for him to take off work? Because what if he needs to take off work later and should save his days, and many other thoughts. I have no family or girlfriends to go with me. This is the first time I've had to do such scary things all on my own. But He knew I would be here. And that peace is here with me. So I guess that's my girlfriend to go with me when my friends and moms can't. Her name is Peace.  A gift from my friends who pray and a gift from Him.

    Friday, July 16, 2010

    Follow Up Appointment

    I had my follow-up visit with the doctor yesterday. The masses in my breast were not cyst. The report said that they were normal tissue. However, when my mom got breast cancer they only biopsied a "shadow" because they were already in there for another biopsy. Turned out that shadow was a worse type of cancer. The doctor told her that if they had waited until the next year's mammogram it would have made it through her lymph nodes and into her system. They found it before it made it into her lymph nodes. So for peace of mind she is referring me to a surgeon to have them removed. She isn't worried. She said this is really routine.

    While I was there I talked to her about getting on the preventative medicine for the migraines. Turns out the medicine I am taking for vertigo is a migraine preventative. So she is increasing my dosage for that. She is also giving me something to help me sleep, but the pharmacist said there are some interactions with the migraine medicine so I am supposed to talk to the doctor and make sure that she still wants me to try to take it before I start that. I'm going ahead and increasing the dosage for the vertigo/migraine medicine because the migraines are affecting my daily life. But since the doctor is off until Thursday I'm just not going to worry about trying to take the sleep medicine stuff until I talk to her first.

    Wednesday, July 14, 2010

    Crazy Week

    Sorry I've been gone so long. It's been crazy here. My dog's been in the hospital since Monday. He's currently having exploratory surgery. I've been getting ready for my husband's parents to arrive today and my parents to arrive tomorrow. Tomorrow is also my follow up appointment for my boobies and my 33rd birthday. On the bright side, my migraines have let up over the last few days. I'm not sure why. Maybe it's just God's grace giving me a break. I may be absent over the next few days, but I am not gone.

    Friday, July 9, 2010

    Not Today World. . . I Have A Headache

    A big issue for me is migraines. For me, the only thing that really gets rid of the migraine is an adjustment from the chiropractor. I've been going for about 9 years now. I have to go at least once a week for maintenance on my migraines. If I do that, I rarely ever have to take my medicine. My doctors had talked to me about getting on a preventative migraine med instead of just taking something when it hits, but if I just go get an adjustment and avoid putting more medication into my body then the choice is obvious. It's been just over a month since we moved. A month since I've had an adjustment. I am declining quickly. I'm almost as bad as I was before I starting going to the chirocracker, as I affectionately call her. I'm having migraines on a daily basis and taking my medicine just as often. We have used up our insurance money for chiropractic visits for the year. For me to see anyone here would be out of pocket. And as a new patient they would want x-rays and tests, etc. I am trying to wait until January before finding a new chiropractor. Until then, I am seriously considering going on the preventative medicine.

    Thursday, July 8, 2010

    Results

    The results from my mammogram and ultrasound showed that the masses were just tissue. That's what the report said. I wanted to know what kind of tissue. But that's all the report says. So I am going back for a follow up appointment next week (on my birthday) when my mom is here and can go with me. Mom is a 10 year breast cancer survivor. She had two kinds of cancer. When they did her ultrasound they saw something that was obviously cancer and then something that was just a "shadow". When they did her biopsy they went ahead and biopsied the other mass. They said that they never would have even biopsied that mass had it been the only one. It was cancer too and it was the bad one. That's how mom refers to it, as "the bad one". So she is digging out her old ultrasound reports and stuff to bring with her and we are going to talk to the doctor about if we should look further just in case.

    Tuesday, July 6, 2010

    My First Mammogram

    I went for my appointment today to follow up on my breast cyst. I was so glad that I found this doctor because she is a specialist in Fibromyalgia. So she can be my ob/gyn and my Fibro doctor. I still need a primary though. I've never met a medical professional who specializes in Fibromyalgia. And she has it herself so she actually knows what I'm feeling. It was exciting for me to see those two types of people in the form of one person. I'm not making any sense, I know. I've had an exhausting day and the fibrofog is kicking in. Anyway, Dr. Alagoz  told me not to take the progesterone therapy anymore. Something about the bleeding. I didn't catch it all. She did tell me that I could have a little bit of caffeine though because right now it's not going to make that much of a difference. YAY! So she did a breast exam and could feel the lump. She also felt another lump on the opposite side of the same breast. She referred me for imaging at the local hospital. Since I had made the trip to Seguin I asked if there were by chance any openings for today so I could do it while I was there. I was able to get in this afternoon. It was my first mammogram and I was scared. Of course we grow up hearing horror stories and as women this is one of the worst things we ever have to do. We all know the dreaded age of  35 is when you get your baseline and at 40 it's squishy every year. My mom is a 10 year breast cancer survivor, my great-grandmother on my dad's side died of breast cancer. Three ladies that I worked with back home were just diagnosed.  Although I'm like 99% certain that it's a cyst because it hurts and tumors don't hurt, I am nervous. Rob met me at the hospital for moral support. But he wasn't allowed to stay in the room. It wasn't as bad as I expected. For me the most painful part was having to hold my arms up. Lifting my arms above shoulder level is difficult for me. That was worse than the actual mammogram itself. I had a mammogram on both breast. Then an ultrasound on the left breast. So I guess they saw what we felt in the left breast and the right one was fine because they didn't do an ultrasound on it. They said they like to get the results to the doctor in 24 hours but that doesn't always happen. Then I just have to wait for the doctor to call me with the results. But I've been out all day and I'm exhausted. Goodnight!

    Monday, July 5, 2010

    Medication List

    Tomorrow is my appointment with my new Ob/Gyn to check out this cyst in my breast. The pain has not been as great as it was a couple of weeks ago when I was considering cutting it out myself. I'm no longer nervous about my appointment but I'm sure that will change when I'm in the waiting room filling out papers. I think this is just an exam. If she wants to do an ultrasound or drain it, my guess is, that would follow at a later date. With this trip to a new doctor, and much overdue, I updated my list of medications. It's a good practice to keep this list up to date and on your person. Your phone is a good location or on a piece of paper behind your license. That way not only will you have it for all of your appointments and pharmacy visits but in case of an accident the medical response team will know exactly what is in your system if you are unable to respond. Don't forget to list your allergies on that card as well. So here's my daily dose:
    • Lyrica 150mg 3x/day for Fibromyalgia
    • Cymbalta  60mg 1x/day, morning, for pain associated with Fibromyalgia
    • Topiramate 50mg 1x/day, bedtime, for vertigo, still increasing the dosage
    • Melatonin 3 to 6 mg 1x/day, bedtime, for help sleeping
    • Sumatriptan 100 mg as needed for migraines, plus 2 Aleve
    • Ondansetron 4mg as needed for nausea
    • Promethegan 25mg as needed for nausea
    • Alphagan, one drop each eye, for driving at night
    • Prenatal Vitamins not because I'm trying to get pregnant but because I need so many supplements due to anemia, etc.,  and this is  the easiest way to get that dosage in the least number of pills

    Saturday, July 3, 2010

    Weekend Plans

    It's a big weekend. Independence Day! A time to celebrate our country's birth and the freedom that comes with it. Unfortunately Fibromyalgia doesn't allow us to always enjoy that freedom to the fullest extent. Because I don't tolerate the heat and sun well and because I can't stand for long periods of time or sit on the hard ground, I no longer attend the parades or big festivals. Although I gotta say that with age they are seeming less and less enticing anyway. I do enjoy fireworks but the chore of hauling out the camp chairs, parking a mile away and hiking to some fair grounds to sit and watch only to have to hike back to the car is more than I want to pay for free entertainment. However, one thing I do enjoy is a movie on the big screen especially in the summer when it's hot outside. I don't feel as much like I'm hiding in my house waiting for summer to pass. Instead I'll just go to the air conditioned theater. Independence Day weekend usually proves to be a big box office time although this year doesn't seem all that exciting. Then again, AMC is luring me out with their offer of any size popcorn for just $1 and any size drink for just $1. You do have to go to this website to print the coupon. It's good for July 4th only. So print your coupon, check your times, get there early because it will be crowded. Take your blankie if your prone to being cold and your Boppy pillow if you need the arm support. What's my pick. You guessed it. Eclipse. We'll see if the hubby  will agree to it. Then I plan on coming home and sitting on my back deck in the hopes that we can see some fireworks from our new house. Hey, there's always hope.

    Friday, July 2, 2010

    Good News for Boobs

    So last night I am searching the internet, doing a little research on progesterone therapy. I read this entire article from a female Ob/Gyn who has Fibromyalgia herself. I really liked the article and had decided to quote part of it here on my blog. She states that she didn't believe that  progesterone therapy was beneficial for treatment of Fibromyalgia. Of course, I wasn't using it for treatment of fibro pain, I was using it to decrease the size of a cyst in my breast. I get to the bottom of the article and it says that she lives in Seguin, Tx where she is still in practice and it includes her email address. Seguin is a little suburb of  San Antonio. I've been in search of a fibro-friendly ob/gyn since I just moved to San Antonio. I've been here less than a month. My doctor from home, who had found the cyst days before I left, wanted me to get it checked out in a month. I had made an appointment with a doctor that I found in the white pages. I had read her reviews and she sounded good so I made an appointment. But my great desire was for a doctor who would at least believe in FM and understand it. I emailed this new doctor and by morning she had emailed me back. I called her office and I have an appointment for Tuesday the 6th. Yay! I called the other office and canceled my appointment for the 12th. It's sad how excited I am to go to the doctor. I'm still nervous about what may happen. I've had great doctors in the past. But to have one who will really understand, how can I be anything but excited.