"I only get one life and I will not let Fibromyalgia take the joy from my living it."

Saturday, April 9, 2016

My Life is Written in This Wood

Welcoming a new kitchen table to our home. I may cry. I helped my husband buy the old one when we were just friends. Then came dating and marriage. Almost 14 years of marriage, in fact. I fed all five of our babies at that table and many others, hosted countless guests. It has dents from kids banging, stains from "washable" markers and one chair has a chew mark from the only thing Bradley ever chewed on. One chair completely retired from the kids breaking it in an MMA fight. It was an excellent table. I shouldn't be this attached. Yet, I am. But we need more space.  So here's our new table. Another good bargain.  This one from a garage sale. Nothing to fuss about when the kids dent it, scratch it and stain it. And they are young enough to still do all of those things so I can become firmly attached to this table. So please, bring your babies to eat and play. Come sit at my table. 


Friday, April 8, 2016

Stock in Parent Life

Krazy Glue.… just one of the many things to buy stock in when you become a parent. Nothing stops tears faster than saying, "I can fix it." 


Thursday, March 17, 2016

Book Club is Not for Cowards

If you have not joined a Bookclub, I highly recommend that you do so. When I first joined it took me a long time to really get involved. I didn't immediately click with the people. I did not always finish the books because of my home life. But in the last few years I have found solace in my monthly book club. And I hate to miss it. And I have found some of my best friends in this book club. I have revived my joy for reading which helps me to escape this difficult life. And reading is something that I can do with the fibromyalgia. With the new Kindle unlimited immersion program I can switch from reading to listening in the same book. When I put my kids down for bed I put headphones on and listen to the book while I am doing housework. But then when I'm ready to go to bed I simply switch over to reading text. It will save your spot. It syncs from phone to Kindle or apps. Yes, I like a paper book. Yet technology has made reading easier. 


Author Callie Newman joined our Bookclub last night as we discussed her book We're All Mad Here. Check it out on Amazon. I really enjoyed it. I told her that when I finished, I immediately went to Amazon to find her other books only to find that this is her first. Sad because I couldn't jump into another one right away but delighted because if the first one was this good then they should only get better. 

Tuesday, June 30, 2015

Burned

It's been a long time since I have burned myself while cooking. I just touched my thumb to a muffin pan. Thank goodness for boo-boo buddies. I am in so much pain!!!!!!! At least it wasn't stoneware. I'm glad my kids are asleep so they don't get to see me be this weak. Going to try out my new correct-x for the first time. I hope it heals fast because I got summer to do!

*essential oils are not FDA approved. All comments in this blog are my sole opinion and based on my personal experience.

Friday, August 15, 2014

Still Recovering from D & C

It's been many months since I went in for my D&C to clean out the candida. Of course, it takes me a long time to recover from the pain of surgeries and injuries. When I went in I was having pains in my vaginal canal. That turned out to actually be a hernia also known as prolapse of the uterus. The muscles in the walls of the vagina weaken and my bowels are creating a bulge. Yes, it's painful also. Some people actually have their uterus fall down. Fortunately, I've never had biological children so that is less likely to happen to me. Mine is probably caused by chronic constipation. So I'm now on daily stool softeners and activia yogurt which totally goes against my Candida diet because of the sugar content. But whatever! After the surgery I had pain in my entire uterus, of course, it had been cleaned out. But it hasn't gone away. Back to the Candida. Yes, the procedure worked for a while. I felt so much better. ALIVE! I could tell I had been living with a infection and was free! This is what it's like to be healthy. I was great while it lasted. I was told to stay on the diet (except for the activia) for 3 more months and slowly come off of it. I did that exactly. But as I came off the diet the Candida came back. I can feel the sludgy feeling coming back, the exhaustion, what it's like to live with an ongoing infection. And I'm still in pain. Except now I have the pain from the hernia and now my entire uterus hurts. My Candida level is very low. Let me stress that. Very low Candida right now so I am going to try a cleansing and some other stuff to see if I can get "healed" where as I couldn't before because I was just so riddled. As far as medication I did have to take the oxi and ibuprofen for about two weeks afterward, but I came off as soon as I could. I have kidney damage and I can't afford to run medication through my body if I don't have to. I'm trying to stay off the donor list if I can. I do take tramadol now on the days that I absolutely need to. I get asked a lot, "So what do you do for pain?" For me, since a lot of mine is due specifically to inflammation I am able to use lavender oil. I put 5-6 drops straight lavender oil in my palm and rub it right on my lower abdomen and it actually helps. I do have to do it several times a day, but it works almost immediately and I'm not hurting my kidneys or having other side effects. Plus I smell great! Lavender has been my best friend through this procedure. It is what got me off the drugs. I'll post some Candida fighting recipes using essential oils. Thanks for being patient with me while I disappear for long periods. Hope you all are staying strong!

*essential oils are not FDA approved. All comments in this blog are my sole opinion and based on personal experience. 

Monday, July 21, 2014

Taco Soup

Taco soup
1 can pinto beans
1 can black beans
1 lb. ground turkey
1 taco seasoning mix
1 ranch seasoning mix
1 can hominy
1 cans rotel
1 cans chicken broth

Brown the meat with the seasonings. Then just dump everything into the pot until heated through.




Friday, June 20, 2014

Fibromyalgia: Is It In Your Head Or Your Hands?

I know I'm a little late on this. But new research is showing the cause of Fibromyalgia may very well be in our hands, not in our brains. This is not necessarily bad news, just different. So don't freak out. Read these articles and tell me what you think.Healthline and INTiDYN. 


Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Ouch That Hurts!


This is a pre-nap story time gone awry. Yes, it hurts. But I try not to let my kids know that their touching me hurts. I put on a happy face and bear it. In fact, you can see me grimace in the bottom left picture. But I don't do that when they can see my face. I try to keep it under control. Of course I say "ouch" and "that hurts" when they do something exceptionally painful. And maybe two or three times a week I make them get off of me telling them, "That hurts mommy, please get down." But I think that's realistic for any parent. I do not want my Fibromyalgia to make me and mommy that they cannot touch. I want them to have all the love I want to give even if my body is not capable of giving everything that is inside my heart. These are the affectionate years. It is important for their development both emotionally and physically. And it is important for me too. These days will not last forever and they will not always be this affectionate. I will miss holding their squishy little bodies and how easily they ran into my hugs and kisses. I will admit, though, that as soon as they go down for nap it's time for a big break. I do the things that I must get done. And then I rub some oils on, take medicine if I need to, lay back on a heating pad and read to escape. That is how I am surviving lately. When they wake up the first thing I do is get those little arms wrapped around me for a huggy huggy, kissy kissy. 

Thursday, June 5, 2014

Short, Sweet, Point

I've obviously been having a hard time blogging. I'm exhausted all the time. These toddlers are kicking my butt. The only time I can do anything is when they are asleep. During their naps I have to do stuff around the house because if I try to do it while they are awake they are, ya know, inside the dishwasher, washing machine, etc. And when they go down at night I am literally right behind them. I maybe last an hour. Long enough to eat and shower. But as I was writing our friend Chelsea, I told her about our trip to the zoo for just a few hours one day and how it took me a week to get over it. You're going along starting to feel like maybe you're actually a normal person and then something happens to remind you that your not. I realized that I have these thoughts occasionally that I can try to journal. Short ones, mind you, because I usually can't complete a, finish a. . . what was I saying? Anyway, the only problem is that I say that I'm not a Debbie-downer. And some of these one liners may sound like I am. So please forgive me if my future entries sound like I'm complaining. I just may not have the energy to put coherency to the  positive thoughts in my head. I assure you, they do still live there. 

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